Hi everybody. Welcome to my blog where I talk about my present.
You know what’s tougher than brain bleeds or brain surgeries? It’s living with this stupid condition of a traumatic brain injury. Let me explain.
Now, I used to be really active. I used to do stuff on my own all the time. Now I rely on anybody for everything. Crazy. I can’t do one thing on my own. Maybe I can pick up a sippy cup. That’s about it. It’s frustrating. I don’t blame my friends, but I go through friends like toilet paper. My friend here said, “Nice image.” But it’s true. And I don’t blame them, but I have to call them for rides. Help me do things. Its tough, because on the one hand you need help, and on the other, you don’t want to ask for help. That lazy boy chair and a bag of weed is starting to look good. I guess things have ways of working out. Maybe this all pushes one to become more independent. You know, small things like; get an apple watch so you can talk the telephone number and stuff like that. Little things you’ll learn. But you have to learn how to become more independent.
Ive been walking more and more with a walker. It’s real tough but also real rewarding. It feels great to walk again. But it’s like any other athletic endeavor. You have to keep at it and do it over and over if you want to get good. Same thing with feeding myself. I practice every morning. A good image is of a three year old child on crack. That’s about how I operate. Food goes everywhere. It’s frustrating, but hey, my dog’s happy.
I would like to talk to you guys about something I’ve learned. You know, when we do things, we often make mistakes or there are imperfections in what we do. I found that there are often beautiful mistakes. In other words, you can learn a lot from your mistakes. You can learn to take advantage of them and recognize them as works of art. The photo above is an example of a couple of mistakes that can be seen as a work of art. The light leak on the image is something you can never recreate and what I’ve learned is to enjoy mistakes, recognize them and don’t discard them. Anyway, that’s my philosophical thought of the day.
Anyway, that’s all I really have to report on. Talk to you guys next week. Love and miss you. Love, B. Nice